I wonder if the spongiest parts, when rewritten, will end up being the best parts or the most painted-and-patched parts.
I remember reading a scholar on changing acceptable language for race. His point was that we keep changing the name of something because we're still uncomfortable with the concept behind it. That's turning out to be true here, too. I am writing and rewriting the stuff when I'm not comfortable with the feelings that underlie. So the question is whether that will be a matter of rearranging sentences or tossing the whole attempt to see and starting over. .